For me, 2012 was amazing and awful at the same time.
I laughed, smiled, and received more white daisies than ever before in 2012. I also cried, unintentionally hurt people I care about, and had more sleepless nights than ever before in 2012.
I saw how amazing people can be and how crappy people can be.
If my 2012 had a theme, it was definitely
I want the theme of my 2013 to be
I'm finally graduating in May (just one year late, get off my cloud). That's big. And it scares me. It's time to create my future. I know what I want my next step to be (a secret until it's set in stone because I'm superstitious and stuff). That next step will help me start building my career in advertising and hopefully get me to my dream job in 20+ years. But first, as creative director of the Texas Tech National Student Advertising Competition team, I plan on working my ass off this semester to help create an amazing campaign.
I also want to create myself. The person I truly want to be. Very often, I get caught up in what others think about me. I care too much. I blame it on getting constantly bullied and put down by the "popular" girls in junior high and high school. That was a long time ago, but the image of the thick-banged, braces, knee brace-wearing Rachel still lingers in the back of my head (girls are mean). So, I plan to start taking after The Dude:
Creating a better me also means I need start loving myself a little more. I've always enjoyed working out, I just get lazy and never keep up with my routine. Running always clears my head and helps with my anxiety. So yeah, I'm going to start running more. And doing pilates. And doing yoga.
There ya go. Rachel L. Bottlinger's